Saturday, May 30, 2009

A Sudden Decision

It really isn't all that sudden. I am trying to stop my obsession over one by transferring it to another. This is sick. Cut off any sick ties, such as these. Grow the fuck up.

I want to work on myself and not be dependent on others and me needing them so I can be happy. Work on myself, earn money, become something of some sort. Stop rotting away.

I want to go home tomorrow. I want to clean. I want to study my ass off. I want to write my Adventure story.

There are few people I know whom I truly, truly treasure. And there are pains that go with these feelings. So many I won't go into details. I shan't re account the obsessions.

I am enjoying this story I'm writing. I take it slow and constantly revise and, I hope, slowly make it better.

I miss how things used to be. Before certain things took place. I could talk easier to certain people. Now there is never anything of worthy to discuss. I am constantly naive to abusers, it's ridiculous.

I feel a bit lost.

Boohoo pity the dumb white whore

imp c

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