A Knife Called Lust

I have a knife
She has the gun
Our eyes are shimmering mirrors of ourselves
There's already puddles straying across the floor
And we're shaking
Yet gripping our pain
Tighter than the crashing drunk at the wheel.

Just fucking push it in
Just help yourself heal
Just wait for the flesh to tear
And see those little red rubies
And you smile that of an inmate
And maybe cry
Because you're finally relieved
You finally got what you deserved
Physical pain
But it should be drawn out more
So you keep dropping rubies

How did you end up with a cathatar in you?
Why do you shake when you see your brothers face?
Why can't we help you?
Why can't I help you?


Things have been broken in this shell for so long
It's hard to remember a time before I was messed.
Left for dead in a broken shell no one there knew how to care
They knew how to care
I didn't know how to allow myself to be cared for
I never deserved love nor care
I wanted the worst for myself
Save the disgusting bile for me
At the end of the day I wanted it all
To just burn away


Sleep is wasteful
What's happening on the other side of the globe
As your lids flutter and you feel the oddities of dreamland coming upon you?
Wakened by something frightening that you'll never remember, or remember to late.
My eyes will gently drift to my arms and legs
And I trace with my fingertips
The maps of my life, of all I've experienced or known
I know each tale and I know each ending.
I know where it begins though I wonder where it will end.
There are still so many scars no one can see
We'll see where this takes me

Imp C

Another Day to Die

I am such a mess.

Life is fucked in the end. :)

Anywho...gonna go outside and smoke this joint

This love, this hate

A Knife Called Lust by Hollywood Undead

Love this song.

Haven't written anything in quite a while.

Feels strange, keys anew under my fingertips as I ache painfully for nicotine.

It's pushed through my veins.

It's hard to face the world on this day.

I need to float freely in the ocean. I need the ocean again. Need it.

Imp C