It'd be on Motherfucker

Cuz all this bullshits made me stronger motherfucker

Drop the World by Lil Wayne ft. Eminem

Well Baby Ben is at the water park with his parents and his kids. He is super pissed. His father tells him, quite serious, "I'm going to lend you some money, but you HAVE to pay me back on Friday." No problem for Baby, now this day comes, they're at the park and his dad gives him twenty lousy fuckin dollars. He wouldn't accept it, told him to keep that and when he gets paid it's his money, and etc., More to this story that makes it fucked up but I've already said too much!

Sooo today I go to take a nap, my pipe and light are in one of my pockets of my capris, slide them off right next to my bed and take a nap. I awake to find that they are gone, cannot find them anywhere, but for some reason my niece's clothes, that are drying, are making a lot of noise, I tell my niece to go find what it is before our new dryer is broken. She says "Yeah, there was a lighter in there." OH SHIT! Is my first thought and I believe my first words. I go and look in the dryer, there are my capris, and there's the pipe. The mouth piece is cracked horrible. Abnormally angry, me and my baby are not having the best day.

They lured him out there, he didn't ask them to take his kids, or to go, and then they won't let me go and give him the shit money. We both cannot wait to just get our own place, be together and have the kids with US next summer.

Last night we discussed marriage and such over the phone. We have decided on a random elope! I told him I needed the whole down on one knee will you marry me business though.

So we say Las Vegas! Probably when I turn 21 next year, if possible, it would be about a month after the kids leave if we can swing it. I want to so badly, to be his girl and for him to be officially my man in every meaning of the words.

I've never loved anyone like this, and felt that same endearing and desirous love back. I cannot picture him not being in my future. I think of how he stares at me and holds me and tells me how much he loves me and holds me. Drives me crazy, knowing we have to wait untill we can even move in together.

Anyway, I need a fag, going to finish watching Indescent Proposal for the first time.

Love!

Valley Cakes

Welcome Home

Thinking of Welcome Home by Coheed and Cambria as I lay in my "new" room. It was my mother's but before that was mine. It is the laundry room the wall connects to my old room. Yay...

I should not even attempt to complain! Oh the news I have for you!

My love's children are here! They got here a few days ago, G's fifth birthday was two days ago. I've had a blast spending time with them when my Love is off work, unfortunately that is from 8 PM on Monday and Tues., 6PM Wednesday and Thurs., then 5PM on Friday. So I must wait all day until I can see their three beautiful faces.

S is 8 though she will be turning 9 later this year. M is 6 and she will be turning 7 I believe, though her and G are barely nine months apart I believe.

They have grown fond of me and I completely adore them. I actually love them more than I love my Love!

S is so smart and yet hilarious as well, though she is a bit self-conscious and reminds me of myself as a worried eight year old with parents who were going through issues.

Regardless! Love and I have committed ourselves to giving these three children the best summer they could ask for. Their life with their mother is a living Hell where they fend for themselves. Luckily we've established a plan of attack!

After this summer(we plan on spending every penny on the sweet bebe's) we will save to pay an attorney to renegotiate the divorce terms of visitation, then get our own place and it will then take about a year for us to get engage, due to me becoming Catholic for the occasion, and thus have a better opportunity to get even more or main custody of the children.

I hope it all works and now that I know these children I have so much more initiative to REALLY AND TRULY get my shit TOGETHER!

Every day I ask my brother when we can go to the community college so I can get put on the list for the GED exam. I will then complete whatever basics I must and take the eight month program to become a medical assistant. From there I will try to continue school while saving up money and becoming much better at my job.

I do not want these children to ever need a thing. I plan on sending them letters and things throughout the year and hopefully even speaking with them.

When I use my brothers desktop I might even post a few photos of the angels. =)

Well I must go, twas nice to come back here and let this all out. I must always have a plan!

Also, this is just a small sample of the new things going on in my life!

Ta ta!
Valley Cakes